Love this, Beth. Not your circumstances—I hope you know stability soon—but your poignant words. They are a lesson. Also props for you being with Skydog! I love them to bits.
Beth, I follow you on instagram because so many of the people I know, follow you. Clare from SkyDog has become a dear friend and when I saw you at her place in Malibu it made me want to reach out. I also have a horse rescue in Park City, Utah and I've collaborated on some work with Clare. I adopted 4 of her not as wild mustangs, Panda, Tux, Boone and Lil' Rain. I just wanted to express how much I enjoyed reading your story and following you on instagram. You have a unique way of seeing the horses and the horse world. It's been fun and inspirational. I'm sorry for all you've been through during this fire and I really appreciate hearing how you're dealing with it. Thank you Barb Phillips , The Saving Gracie Foundation
Ooooffff, damn. You put in words what I’ve been trying to navigate myself for awhile now. Somehow, I found myself going through two major natural disasters…one in 2011 and one in 2024. During the first one, I didn’t have horses in my life. With this last one, I did. And the difference in how my nervous system has dealt with it has been profound. The Universe brought me back to horses in the most profound way 3 years ago and it has turned my life upside down (in the best ways…and really fucking hard ways, too…ha). Don’t get me wrong - this shit is hard and it is in there DEEEEP, but thank god for the horses. I spend a lot of time pondering on that too - how the hell do they do it? My horse mentor and teacher reminds me all the time that if we don’t interrupt the process, they will quite literally shake/move the trauma out of their bodies and keep going. I marvel at that. I try to embody it. But so much of what you said resonates - wanting that perceived sense of control is a big one. But if nothing else, they remind me - be here. Now. Be right here. And they make me braver. To feel what is coming up without always trying to find the damn root of the cause. Accept what is. Gahhh, there are tears in my eyes as I type this. I’m a stranger but I wish I could give you a hug. You’re going through a hella hard thing and it is disorienting and it changes everything. I’m so glad you have the horses. They are such medicine. Sometimes my saving grace is smooshing my nose into their sides and inhaling as deeply as I can. That keeps me going. Keep going to that church. Hugs. 💛
Amongst an absolute tragedy and disaster, you have cultivated and shared such a beautiful reflection. The wisdom of horses can integrate into every facet of life. Especially in crisis. Coming back to present. Back to grazing.
I lost my horse in an accidental barn fire in June last year. It’s the most gut-wrenching thing I’ve ever seen. I’m glad your family and critters were safe. We’re on opposite coasts, but I feel your words and am here to support in whatever way is most helpful. Thank you for writing this.
I know that when I saw that Hollywood fire erupt that I basically went in to "panic mode" and started watching the LA news feed intently. And also started praying HARD for you! (and I have to/need to believe that it does some good) I even got up in the middle of the night that night to see if they had contained it yet.
I'm so sorry that you had to make choices that we should never have to make. Choosing to give up things that we love only because we are not able to save them. It's like choosing to give up a limb only because you have to choose only one. And I know that things are only "things" but that doesn't make them any less loved and appreciated. It's not like "Kondo-ing" things, it's more like being asked to choose one loved one over another. I know that where I live (basically in the Olympic National Forest) we have a fear every summer that somebody will set it all on fire and we will have no control over it. So I, on a much smaller level, feel your pain.
Please keep reminding us that we have a responsibility to our Mother Earth and to each other to make our existence count.
But please know that you are SO loved and thought about all of the time. Basically because I see you, and understand you and what you represent to the world. People that know, know... Maybe it's an HSP thing or maybe it's just a "Consciousness" thing. But I know that we take care of our own. And you are "one of us". Beings of light. Beings of kindness and understanding. Beings that want better for the Earth and for nature and respect all life.
Here to stand beside you when the fear comes.
Thank you for your words sis
Love this, Beth. Not your circumstances—I hope you know stability soon—but your poignant words. They are a lesson. Also props for you being with Skydog! I love them to bits.
Beth, I follow you on instagram because so many of the people I know, follow you. Clare from SkyDog has become a dear friend and when I saw you at her place in Malibu it made me want to reach out. I also have a horse rescue in Park City, Utah and I've collaborated on some work with Clare. I adopted 4 of her not as wild mustangs, Panda, Tux, Boone and Lil' Rain. I just wanted to express how much I enjoyed reading your story and following you on instagram. You have a unique way of seeing the horses and the horse world. It's been fun and inspirational. I'm sorry for all you've been through during this fire and I really appreciate hearing how you're dealing with it. Thank you Barb Phillips , The Saving Gracie Foundation
Ooooffff, damn. You put in words what I’ve been trying to navigate myself for awhile now. Somehow, I found myself going through two major natural disasters…one in 2011 and one in 2024. During the first one, I didn’t have horses in my life. With this last one, I did. And the difference in how my nervous system has dealt with it has been profound. The Universe brought me back to horses in the most profound way 3 years ago and it has turned my life upside down (in the best ways…and really fucking hard ways, too…ha). Don’t get me wrong - this shit is hard and it is in there DEEEEP, but thank god for the horses. I spend a lot of time pondering on that too - how the hell do they do it? My horse mentor and teacher reminds me all the time that if we don’t interrupt the process, they will quite literally shake/move the trauma out of their bodies and keep going. I marvel at that. I try to embody it. But so much of what you said resonates - wanting that perceived sense of control is a big one. But if nothing else, they remind me - be here. Now. Be right here. And they make me braver. To feel what is coming up without always trying to find the damn root of the cause. Accept what is. Gahhh, there are tears in my eyes as I type this. I’m a stranger but I wish I could give you a hug. You’re going through a hella hard thing and it is disorienting and it changes everything. I’m so glad you have the horses. They are such medicine. Sometimes my saving grace is smooshing my nose into their sides and inhaling as deeply as I can. That keeps me going. Keep going to that church. Hugs. 💛
Amongst an absolute tragedy and disaster, you have cultivated and shared such a beautiful reflection. The wisdom of horses can integrate into every facet of life. Especially in crisis. Coming back to present. Back to grazing.
Beautifully written 💛
I lost my horse in an accidental barn fire in June last year. It’s the most gut-wrenching thing I’ve ever seen. I’m glad your family and critters were safe. We’re on opposite coasts, but I feel your words and am here to support in whatever way is most helpful. Thank you for writing this.
I know that when I saw that Hollywood fire erupt that I basically went in to "panic mode" and started watching the LA news feed intently. And also started praying HARD for you! (and I have to/need to believe that it does some good) I even got up in the middle of the night that night to see if they had contained it yet.
I'm so sorry that you had to make choices that we should never have to make. Choosing to give up things that we love only because we are not able to save them. It's like choosing to give up a limb only because you have to choose only one. And I know that things are only "things" but that doesn't make them any less loved and appreciated. It's not like "Kondo-ing" things, it's more like being asked to choose one loved one over another. I know that where I live (basically in the Olympic National Forest) we have a fear every summer that somebody will set it all on fire and we will have no control over it. So I, on a much smaller level, feel your pain.
Please keep reminding us that we have a responsibility to our Mother Earth and to each other to make our existence count.
But please know that you are SO loved and thought about all of the time. Basically because I see you, and understand you and what you represent to the world. People that know, know... Maybe it's an HSP thing or maybe it's just a "Consciousness" thing. But I know that we take care of our own. And you are "one of us". Beings of light. Beings of kindness and understanding. Beings that want better for the Earth and for nature and respect all life.
You are part of our "herd"...
I will stand beside you...